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[09 Jun 2006|04:25pm] |
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My hands and feet are so cold, I'm so empty inside. Life without you is like living with cancer without chemo therapy. Impossible.
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Whats Beneath Those Jeans
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| I don't know what to do anymore. |
[22 Nov 2005|12:42pm] |
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So Sick - Ne Yo |
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It's ridiculous.
It's been months and months and I still can't get over you.
I'm so sick of love songs, so tired of tears.
So done wishing you were here.
I'm so sad and slow.
Why can't I turn off the radio ?
Tired of dealing with the frustration, stupid love songs.
I remember when I used to think about your smile and you having my first child.
I'm so sick.
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| Confused |
[30 Oct 2005|05:49pm] |
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I never thought love was suppose to hurt this much. I don't understand it at all, I always got the impression that love was suppose to be a happy,enchanting,exuberant feeling. Last night, Brittany and I were suppose to go to a themepark but at the last minute I couldn't find my pass so she flipped out on me and did all of this yelling, and asked me if I would just pay for the regular ticket. I said, no - Why should I ? She replied, well you were the one that lost your pass. Isn't that fucked up ? The reason I am broke is because I spent all of my money on her during the week. I thought when you loved someone you were suppose to spend your last dime on them if that's all you had left. She always complains to me that she never has money when i'm involved but, surely as her friends ask her to go out to eat or somewhere with them money somehow magically appears. I don't understand love, let alone life. Why can't I be happy like everyone else ?
I need some tips/advice.
Thanks,
Marvin
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| today was rough. |
[09 May 2005|10:15pm] |
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Today was another miserable day. I went to school took part of my final exam in Spanish II first period. Second period we did nothing so I walked down the hallway to Ms. Beeler's class and chilled with Malcom and Chris. It started out has an ordinary day. I went to Sarah's class and did my homework for once in there. I still hadn't finished my notebook so natalie said she was going to stay after school to finish hers so I asked her if she would help me as well since she has like a b in there. Fourth period Brittany called me and we were in the middle of ringing and all of a sudden I hear Jay-Z i'm a hustler start playing so I was embarassed. Went to lunch and Mrs. Henderson ( our dean ) talked to me about the friends I hang with and the choices I make. Went back to fourth period and everything was okay. The bell rung so I walked to Sarah's class and put together my notebook and natalie made up two tests for me and I copied some more homework. Brittany called me just as I was walking out of the door so we talked for a little bit and then I called her when I got home. I got home;and called her we started arguing and I got the biggest migrane so I became really grumpy and told her I'd talk to her later because I needed to rest. I woke up and went to Mcdonald's and Winn-Dixie, and then she got upset because I was talking to these girls at Mcdonalds' who are my friends and like three of the girls I didn't even know; I only talk to them because they give me free food. She specifically told me --- xdanceangel7x: i love you so much marvin.
xdanceangel7x: but i have so much going on.
I don't know what that's suppose to mean - but i'm not so much as being sad it's a matter of being confused. Some days we're the best couple in the world others we quarrel and bicker like immature brothers. I love that girl more than anything - and nothing is going to tear us apart.
And these are the words of Marvin's broken heart.
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[06 May 2005|02:12pm] |
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So, tomorrow i'm going to see the infamous Ryan Cabrera. Perhaps the only black soul once again. Oh well.
This week was sort of hectic, between school work & brittany and i fighting, we're all good now. I love that girl.
Now i'm off to w0rk.
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[30 Apr 2005|07:52am] |
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I qualified for the Pepsi Bowling tournament in Springhill,Florida. So i'm going there today, this is like the earliest i've ever been up on a saturday morning. I'll be back sometime later today. Wish me luck :)
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| last night. |
[24 Apr 2005|12:04pm] |
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So last night we saw Lonestar in concert. I was the only black person out there. Brittany and I lied to the guard at the reserved seating and told him that she lost the tickets, so we got to sit up close. They played my favorite song. I'm already there; I was singing....
I had a great time.
There was more; but that's for us to know.
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| lovers 4 life |
[21 Apr 2005|10:20pm] |
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I love Brittany more and more each day, especially today. I can be hotter than canye pepper but her smile just reminds me that everything is okay. We went to the track-meet although we couldn't spend much time together because she had to train the athletes. I was a little lonesome. I miss my spending so much time with my baby. We're going to a lonestar concert, I love their song " already there " this weekend which will be an experience for me because i've never been to a country concert. Can't nobody come between us - we're the Shit.
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| sad&moresad |
[18 Apr 2005|09:40pm] |
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i'm putting all of my feelings out finally.
there's this girl who i'm madly in love with but i don't know how to express myself clearly without messing up. i gave her my heart&she did the same. she's never cried this much over a guy&i've never cried this much over a girl. yes marvin DOES cry and he's not ashamed to admit that. she lost her virginity to me&that's something really big to her&me too. i've fucked up so many times but she's never given up on me. i just don't know what to do. i make silly silly mistakes but i don't intentionally mean to hurt her. i cried so much tonight because this afternoon she totally acted like she didn't care and she was just hurting my feelings without even caring and when i addressed it to her she told me whatever she didn't care. even though we have our arguments i know she loves me with all of her heart because we've shared so many precious moments&she's still here with her man. i've been with her for 78 days and that's a long time. i don't want to lose her. when we first started going out i made a promise that i'd never leave her&today this day i'm going to stay committed to that promise. i want to let her and the WHOLE world know i love her with every part of my heart mind&soul.
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| doctor today. |
[15 Apr 2005|11:39am] |
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so today i saw a radiologist.
he took some x-rays of my throat and stomach.
which is called an upper gi.
i had to consume barium; which is definitely gross.
i couldn't even burp or anything the doctor wouldn't let me.
i had to throw up like two times but i couldn't he said he needed the air in my body.
he was like "breathe, stop breathing, breathe, stop breathing "
it was weird seeing my insides on the monitor.
i could see my heart beating.
i'm feeling a little better so we're going to the movies tonight.
i <3 howell.
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| sick & sick |
[13 Apr 2005|10:01am] |
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today is going by slow.
i'm sitting here in front of the computer, it's killing me just to sit here.
i can barely swallow, my mouth is so hot.
i can't see the doctor until the 27th of april.
i'm miserable.
i didn't go to school today either.
brittany, i'm counting on you with the chicken noodle soup.
i'm home alone & lonely
it hurts !
some one should come and visit me today.
-Marvin
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| i feel like shit. |
[12 Apr 2005|11:31am] |
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today sucks.
i'm really sick.
i didn't go to school.
last night on the phone brittany promised me that if i got more sleep it would help.
i feel worse than how i felt yesterday.
my nose is stuffy.
my mouth is on fire.
my nose is constantly running.
i'm coughing and blowing up blood through my mouth and nostrils.
it just sucks.
i feel so weak.
i'm going to see the doctor in a little bit.
someone pray for me. :-(
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